This Scar



I am feeling things

I thought I buried

Deep down inside

Well here they are

Saying hello again

I’m struggling

To keep them inside


The rain brought healing

To me, it brought life

I am renewed

In my body

In my spirit

In my mind


I’m moving forward

I made my stand

I have won

It is a victory

I’m not undaunted

I have plenty wounds

Deep inside


I am fortunate

To have made it

This far

I have everything

I will ever need

Including, this scar

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New World Order

New World Order


I’ll be your servant


I’ll nod my head as you speak


A good soldier

Of misfortune

I know not of what you speak

Of this torture

Deny everyone who

Speaks out against you

This oppression

Is now our expression

It’s explicitly

A depression

Rise up and sit down

Turn yourself around

Take orders from a leader

Who is a big fat clown

If you do not understand it

You never will

Tilt your head back and take the pill

Consciousness fades

Into oblivion

Those who chose to fit

Will never win

Nod your head and smile

Step in line

Put your head between your knees

And kiss everything goodbye

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September Sky


The sky was so blue

Lake Michigan in June

Nary a cloud passing by

I was the lucky one

With you in my arms

Red sunset hung in the sky

The boats on the water

So gently rocked

Gulls glided effortlessly

Here in the now

The days growing shorter

No place I’d rather be

With you in my arms

The sun on the horizon

Under the September sky

Here in my heart

So comforting

That beautiful look in your eyes

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Eyes on Fire


The gods of thunder

Boom in the night

Arcing lightning

Lights up the sky

A howling wind blows

It chills to the bone

My heart is racing

I thought I was alone


Sounds fill the air


Coming so near

Her eyes are upon me

My throat clenches tight

I can’t make a sound

Dark is the night


They light up a room


The feelings of doom

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I’ve been crumbling

For years

I’ve been living off

My tears

I’ve been wasting all

My time

I’ve been living off

This lie

That it will get better

That it all works out

I’ve been crumbling

Like shale

I’ve been living life

So stale

I’ve been finding out

I’m wrong

I’ve been chasing ghosts

Far gone

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Your Forever


Funny how things work out in life

You can’t see it through the trees and clouds

Not every sunny day is as bright as it may seem

Not every starless night holds menace

I don’t know why I am here

Sometimes I wish I would

I just know when you are near

My heart does things I didn’t think it could

I don’t know why I do the things I do

I don’t know why I say the things I say

Trying to follow my heart

When my brain gets in the way

I hope it’s cool with you

If we just walk this path for a while

Nothing else matters right now

Especially when you smile

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You died alone


You died alone

No more will you torment me as I sleep

No more will I be ashamed to not have you in my life

You were never there for me

I can’t believe you never cared for me

Still it makes me a little sad now that you’re gone

I wanted to see you, maybe even forgive you for your sins

You landed one more shot with your demise

One more arrow into my side

Life goes on, alone

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Lonely Place


It’s a lonely place

If you let it be

It’s a lonely world

If you hide and keep

Everything you love

Locked away

Under ice and stone

Inside flesh and bones

Do you wander out

Amid the sea

The crush of life

And it’s mysteries

Or do you sit

In a darkened room

Do you let your house

Become your tomb?

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Smoke comes in through the windows

waltzing in from someone’s fire pit

They enjoy the warmth of the blaze

I’m left with the smoldering remains

So goes the parody of life

So glows the ember in the night

Not my light

Not my light

Pain comes in through many angles

Life bogs down from many tangles

This web I’m in, I think I’m choking

I can’t find my way out this time

Everything is so broken

The pieces, the pieces all around

I know I need change, I know I need something

I wish I was anywhere but here

I wish I was anyone but me

I wish I could hit the restart button

But I can’t, I know I can’t this time

I hate to feel so damn weakened

I hate to come to you on my knees

I don’t really even know how to say this

I’d rather say sorry than please

I hate to feel so damn cheated

I hate to say goodbye to it all

I don’t think I have the strength to do it

I don’t think I have the strength at all

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2021 Bears Schedule/Prediction

It’s finally here! It came out around 6:45pm central time, Wednesday night. We now know when every game will be played. So pull up a chair, grab a drink, and let’s go!

Week 1: At Rams- The Bears fly out to California to kick off the Sunday Night Football schedule. All eyes will be on them as they take on a playoff team. I don’t see how they win this game, but I will be rooting for a victory. I think LA just has too much talent. (Loss)

Week 2: vs Bengals- This is one of the two games I think the Bears will win. QB Joe Burrows is coming off a knee injury. Andy Dalton will probably be the QB for the Bears. It depends on if Allen Robinson either signs his franchise tag or gets an extension. If he’s not playing, the Bears shot of winning goes down dramatically. (Win)

Week 3: At Browns- I have this as a loss. Cleveland is just too tough. I’m not sure the Bears have the offense or defense to beat many playoff teams. (Loss)

Week4: vs Lions- There is probably a small chance the Bears take care of the Lions at home. Not sure how Jason Goff will be. He’s been very average. (Win)

Week 5: At Raiders- Raiders are a bit ahead of the Bears, and the last time the two teams played, the Raiders took care of business. I give Oakland the advantage at home. (Loss)

Week 6: Packers- The Bears are at home. This one comes down to who the QB is. If it’s Rodgers, it’s a loss. If it’s Love, it’s 50-50. (Loss)

Week 7: At Tampa Bay- I still don’t know how the Bears beat Brady last year. I don’t see how they beat them this year. Maybe if Fields is starting. Maybe. (Loss)

Week 8: vs 49ers- It’s at home, but San Fran will be a tough contest. Kind of depends who is at QB for the Bears. I’m giving the nod to the 9ers. (Loss)

Week 9: At Steelers- Pittsburgh had a bit of a down year in 2020, but I look for them to be back in the mix for the AFC North. This will be a tough game. The Bears could have a shot to surprise them if Dalton is playing well. (Loss)

Week 10: BYE

Week 11: vs Ravens- Baltimore is tough, and Jackson might be more than the Bears can Handle. It would be kind of epic if Fields was starting at this point. (Loss)

Week 12: At Lions- Detroit is always a tough matchup, especially at home on Thanksgiving. (Loss)

Week 13: Cardinals- Arizona comes calling. Another tough match for the beloved. (Loss)

Week 14: At Packers- Green Bay is always tough, especially up north. This depends on the QB. If Rodgers returns, it likely won’t go the Bears way. (Loss)

Week 15: vs Vikings- Will the Bears be able to take advantage of their home field advantage? I have my doubts. (Loss)

Week 16: at Seahawks- Seattle is always tough, especially with Russell Wilson. They have more firepower, do they have the defense? (Loss)

Week 17: vs Giants- Saquon Barkley will be fully healed from his knee injury. The only thing that would save the Bears is if they are headed to the playoffs, and want to rest him. I was originally thinking this might be a Bears win, but now I am not so sure. Will Fields be playing? Lots of factors to consider. I give the Giants a slight edge. (Win)

Week 18: at Vikings- Bears close out the season up in the frozen North. Of course the Vikings are in a dome, but they should be more than the Bears can handle. (Loss)

So there we have it. I have the Bears finishing the season with only 3 wins, and 14 losses. Now, this is as the team is constructed now, with Andy Dalton the starting QB. Things can change with Justin Fields starting, and if the Bears are able to bring back Robinson*, and Akiem Hicks.

*Allen Robinson has currently signed his franchise tender, but can negotiate an extension, or Bears can remove the tag/trade him. July 15th is the deadline to do work out a deal, or Robinson will play 2021 under the terms of the franchise tag.

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